Ho Hum

I'm not sure if you guys still check up on this blog anymore :/.. I still kind of want to keep this blog going for the four of us because it's a nice way for us to still keep in touch and talk about our days at school or whatever.

Not sure when you guys'll read this but I hope it's soon :D

Yeah just wanted to put that idea out there

-clara

i have many straws, but this may or may not be the last one

i'm also hurt by this..

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=775964&id=1062164898#/photo.php?pid=775965&id=1062164898&fbid=1249745358057

this was the friday before halloween....

back on topic.

hey nat, i'll give you some background info. becca and me talked from about 10 30 pm to 1 30 am last night, along with clara

i'll send you the chatlogs if becca and clara allow me to, if not, you can hear their side of the story and mine

but anyways, you guys signed off on me. without warning.

i am thoroughly pissed off, because i was hoping we could actually talk.

we were talking and could've GONE somewhere until you guys signed off

in two minutes of each other.

this can't be a "gtg sleep" thing either, because i didn't get a "g'night" or "bye" or anything.

from both of you

can we talk about this in real life?

or are we going to settle this on the internet.

god grew tired of us

dammit i submitted too early

anyways, reading that book maketh me cry

pahtee is on the saturday after black friday

so in about a week and a half

guest list is like last year's, but with some more stuy peeps.

also where art thou becca

EDIT: ahaha i can do it too clara <3

-liyndcai

ahh..

I think i was supposed to post on the 17th.. so im going to put this under that day :D

i don't have much to say except that it's midterm week for us LaGing people :D constantly lagging behind~

lol I'm trying to finish my video game design before tomorrow.. which is Friday.. which is also when my design is due :/ but my design is so crappy.. it's like rain rain go away and some girl sitting in front of a window sill looking at the mean clouds pour rain all over the land. I wanna do something interesting like Genji Dawn of the Samurai :[ but my skills aren't that pro.. ICAN'T WAIT TO GET MAH NEW GLASSES :D

i lost them.. my dad got me new glasses the other day.. but they are going to take like two weeks from.. tuesday :[[[[[[ i want them nao..

yeah.. I don't get it. Why is it whenever something cool happens i have it all in my head how i'll write it about in my blog :DDD but when it comes time to write about it.. it's like ehhhh nothing's coming..

oh yeah. if you guys read linda's post i hope you read this too :D 'cause you'll probably go o___o how'd something written after Linda's post get put under 11/17? shhhh e___e it's a secret. um anyway.. what time's your b-day partay linda? :DD my friend wants to go bowling on that day and she can't go on any other day :[ so i'm trying to see if i can go to both without missing the other. If it's like last year, it's all good :DD

We were in our second round of play-offs for bowling yesterday.. it was in Staten Island up against Tottenville or something.. some weird high school that sounds like it came out of some hill billy movie xD no offense to them.. but they looked like staten islanders o___o it was a huge culture shock to me.. i know people from our school from staten island.. but WHOAAA they had like the stereotypical staten island stufff... their own bowling balls that were like pink.. kinda big girls with hair extensions.. and the typical stuff like jelled long hair.. kinda like how allyson veneluavelakshdflksdh w.e used to look like .

yeah but we lost by a SHIWET LAKSHDLFK LOAD OF POINTSS

A team.. like the best people on the team lost by like 140 points @___@ HOLY **********

but B team was better.. they only lost by like 60 something points.. I left school like.. after seventh period for the game.. but some girl, Harley, showed up too and Mr. Shale put me on B team.. but I played really bad the first time.. i got a 46 because I guess i was really nervous @___@ so i let Harley play because she hasn't gone all season.. and I thought i'd probably disappoint him again :[ but I kind of regret it.. I got a 95 last time at practice.. but w.e :/ next year.

Yeah that's all I have for now :D

-clara

So.....

You didn't tell me what time your party is.
I don't even know if it's today, but when I asked last, you said it'd be on Sunday.
And it's Sunday.
But since I haven't heard anything, I can't go.
I have to go to dinner with my family.

-nat

Pacemaker

I've been trying to keep up with some things in school lately.. and some activities outside of school so I really don't have the enrgy to write the long blogs i used to write :/ Sorry to those who were looking foward to it.

I have mid-terms next week.. so my next post probably won't be so long either.. man that sucks

I'll just brief up whatever i have on my mind.

I got a 95 during bowling today :D only during the second round though.. i was having a pretty bad day because some of my friends didn't say hi to me.. I have to get an answer for that soon. I did pretty bad during the first round with a 48, but it's all good with the 95. I've also kind of feel like the color in my face is draining away. The other day I noticed that my tongue is really white.. which usually signifies that you're unhealthy, why I don't know. My nails have also gotten these white speckles on them too which is supposed to mean that your body is lacking calcium. Plus most of the people around school have red ish lips.. and somehow my lips are always drained of color. I want to figure that out. I even have this weird rash thing going on around the back of my neck.. which everyone thinks is some weird ass hicky so i always have to keep my hair down and my hair's pretty coarse.. not like the typical smooth and shiny asian hair, so it blows up whenever i don't tie it.. or it gets fuzzy and all that nasty stuff.

Yeah that's probably about it for my speed blog entry.. can we go to Central Park for real during Thanksgiving break? I'll try really hard to contact you whenver i can Linda :]

-clara

public service announcement

Hey guys, I'm just address this out front because I have a debate tournament tomorrow, and I'd like this off my mind before I practice.

Rough spots are bound to happen in friendships, especially long friendships like ours. However, that doesn't mean you have to do the typical girly thing. We've always been the fan of not being that kind of drama group, the kind that doesn't do that behind the back talking. We've been doing a great job of that, we never talk behind each other's backs. Which is why I'm bring in this out in the front so that we can clearly talk about it, because dodging questions and just being passive about it won't fix crap.

First order of business, the Halloween ordeal. Yes, I missed the planning and I didn't trick or treat with you guys. I asked you guys if you going to get mad, and I got a mostly no. I regret missing that planning meeting, because that seemed like fun, but I was busy at the time, and although you could say that I should have cancelled, that would be unfair to the other party.

Second order of business, breast cancer walk. I don't know, I didn't hear anything about you guys going. There didn't seem to be any intention of me being let to go. What I want to know is how this would be have been a good idea. I get it, you guys were mad at me for before, but I don't get how this solves anything.

Third order of business was yesterday. Sorry Clara, I know you were supposed to tell me, and you forgot, and I can't say anything about that since I forget often as well. But at this point, I was functioning and awake on Wednesday at 7AM. In addition, my cellphone was working, and Clara has my phone number, so you can't pull that "I didn't have your number on me". The point is you guys saw that I was there and didn't call me or tell me anything.

I know you guys want to hang out, and I know you guys have a lot of fun. It's not fun however, to learn on Facebook at 11AM that your best friends were hanging out while you sat there. Yeah, you could say I didn't ask, but I know while Rebecca asks, you guys asked Clara to go, and I was not invited.

I'm been rather apathetic recently. My emotions are on a down low, I can't even muster enough to care about my failing grades. But even with my emotional rut right now, it still kind of hurts to be excluded to this extent. I want to be best friends with all of you guys, but I'm hating this drama. I love you guys Nat and Becca, but when you guys just talk to each other and not to me, I can't just say it doesn't bother me. On Halloween when I learned that you guys were hanging out and then walking to Clara's house, I can't say that didn't make me feel excluded. When you guys wouldn't answer the phone, and yes I know you guys were fixing her computer, but I called like five times, and I didn't get anybody after I got hung up on, I was feeling pretty shitty at this point.

And Nat, since you told me Becca c/p'ed the below post and didn't comment on it, I assume that you guys read what I write, but you don't comment on it, even when I want an answer. This time, I want an answer to all of this chaos. I want to know what you think, and I want to know if there is a compromise. What I do not want however, is a long post explaining how it is entirely my fault.

I want to be friends with you guys, but I'm not willing to be treated like this in order to be called "Best Friends".