i have many straws, but this may or may not be the last one

i'm also hurt by this..

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=775964&id=1062164898#/photo.php?pid=775965&id=1062164898&fbid=1249745358057

this was the friday before halloween....

back on topic.

hey nat, i'll give you some background info. becca and me talked from about 10 30 pm to 1 30 am last night, along with clara

i'll send you the chatlogs if becca and clara allow me to, if not, you can hear their side of the story and mine

but anyways, you guys signed off on me. without warning.

i am thoroughly pissed off, because i was hoping we could actually talk.

we were talking and could've GONE somewhere until you guys signed off

in two minutes of each other.

this can't be a "gtg sleep" thing either, because i didn't get a "g'night" or "bye" or anything.

from both of you

can we talk about this in real life?

or are we going to settle this on the internet.

god grew tired of us

dammit i submitted too early

anyways, reading that book maketh me cry

pahtee is on the saturday after black friday

so in about a week and a half

guest list is like last year's, but with some more stuy peeps.

also where art thou becca

EDIT: ahaha i can do it too clara <3

-liyndcai

ahh..

I think i was supposed to post on the 17th.. so im going to put this under that day :D

i don't have much to say except that it's midterm week for us LaGing people :D constantly lagging behind~

lol I'm trying to finish my video game design before tomorrow.. which is Friday.. which is also when my design is due :/ but my design is so crappy.. it's like rain rain go away and some girl sitting in front of a window sill looking at the mean clouds pour rain all over the land. I wanna do something interesting like Genji Dawn of the Samurai :[ but my skills aren't that pro.. ICAN'T WAIT TO GET MAH NEW GLASSES :D

i lost them.. my dad got me new glasses the other day.. but they are going to take like two weeks from.. tuesday :[[[[[[ i want them nao..

yeah.. I don't get it. Why is it whenever something cool happens i have it all in my head how i'll write it about in my blog :DDD but when it comes time to write about it.. it's like ehhhh nothing's coming..

oh yeah. if you guys read linda's post i hope you read this too :D 'cause you'll probably go o___o how'd something written after Linda's post get put under 11/17? shhhh e___e it's a secret. um anyway.. what time's your b-day partay linda? :DD my friend wants to go bowling on that day and she can't go on any other day :[ so i'm trying to see if i can go to both without missing the other. If it's like last year, it's all good :DD

We were in our second round of play-offs for bowling yesterday.. it was in Staten Island up against Tottenville or something.. some weird high school that sounds like it came out of some hill billy movie xD no offense to them.. but they looked like staten islanders o___o it was a huge culture shock to me.. i know people from our school from staten island.. but WHOAAA they had like the stereotypical staten island stufff... their own bowling balls that were like pink.. kinda big girls with hair extensions.. and the typical stuff like jelled long hair.. kinda like how allyson veneluavelakshdflksdh w.e used to look like .

yeah but we lost by a SHIWET LAKSHDLFK LOAD OF POINTSS

A team.. like the best people on the team lost by like 140 points @___@ HOLY **********

but B team was better.. they only lost by like 60 something points.. I left school like.. after seventh period for the game.. but some girl, Harley, showed up too and Mr. Shale put me on B team.. but I played really bad the first time.. i got a 46 because I guess i was really nervous @___@ so i let Harley play because she hasn't gone all season.. and I thought i'd probably disappoint him again :[ but I kind of regret it.. I got a 95 last time at practice.. but w.e :/ next year.

Yeah that's all I have for now :D

-clara

So.....

You didn't tell me what time your party is.
I don't even know if it's today, but when I asked last, you said it'd be on Sunday.
And it's Sunday.
But since I haven't heard anything, I can't go.
I have to go to dinner with my family.

-nat

Pacemaker

I've been trying to keep up with some things in school lately.. and some activities outside of school so I really don't have the enrgy to write the long blogs i used to write :/ Sorry to those who were looking foward to it.

I have mid-terms next week.. so my next post probably won't be so long either.. man that sucks

I'll just brief up whatever i have on my mind.

I got a 95 during bowling today :D only during the second round though.. i was having a pretty bad day because some of my friends didn't say hi to me.. I have to get an answer for that soon. I did pretty bad during the first round with a 48, but it's all good with the 95. I've also kind of feel like the color in my face is draining away. The other day I noticed that my tongue is really white.. which usually signifies that you're unhealthy, why I don't know. My nails have also gotten these white speckles on them too which is supposed to mean that your body is lacking calcium. Plus most of the people around school have red ish lips.. and somehow my lips are always drained of color. I want to figure that out. I even have this weird rash thing going on around the back of my neck.. which everyone thinks is some weird ass hicky so i always have to keep my hair down and my hair's pretty coarse.. not like the typical smooth and shiny asian hair, so it blows up whenever i don't tie it.. or it gets fuzzy and all that nasty stuff.

Yeah that's probably about it for my speed blog entry.. can we go to Central Park for real during Thanksgiving break? I'll try really hard to contact you whenver i can Linda :]

-clara

public service announcement

Hey guys, I'm just address this out front because I have a debate tournament tomorrow, and I'd like this off my mind before I practice.

Rough spots are bound to happen in friendships, especially long friendships like ours. However, that doesn't mean you have to do the typical girly thing. We've always been the fan of not being that kind of drama group, the kind that doesn't do that behind the back talking. We've been doing a great job of that, we never talk behind each other's backs. Which is why I'm bring in this out in the front so that we can clearly talk about it, because dodging questions and just being passive about it won't fix crap.

First order of business, the Halloween ordeal. Yes, I missed the planning and I didn't trick or treat with you guys. I asked you guys if you going to get mad, and I got a mostly no. I regret missing that planning meeting, because that seemed like fun, but I was busy at the time, and although you could say that I should have cancelled, that would be unfair to the other party.

Second order of business, breast cancer walk. I don't know, I didn't hear anything about you guys going. There didn't seem to be any intention of me being let to go. What I want to know is how this would be have been a good idea. I get it, you guys were mad at me for before, but I don't get how this solves anything.

Third order of business was yesterday. Sorry Clara, I know you were supposed to tell me, and you forgot, and I can't say anything about that since I forget often as well. But at this point, I was functioning and awake on Wednesday at 7AM. In addition, my cellphone was working, and Clara has my phone number, so you can't pull that "I didn't have your number on me". The point is you guys saw that I was there and didn't call me or tell me anything.

I know you guys want to hang out, and I know you guys have a lot of fun. It's not fun however, to learn on Facebook at 11AM that your best friends were hanging out while you sat there. Yeah, you could say I didn't ask, but I know while Rebecca asks, you guys asked Clara to go, and I was not invited.

I'm been rather apathetic recently. My emotions are on a down low, I can't even muster enough to care about my failing grades. But even with my emotional rut right now, it still kind of hurts to be excluded to this extent. I want to be best friends with all of you guys, but I'm hating this drama. I love you guys Nat and Becca, but when you guys just talk to each other and not to me, I can't just say it doesn't bother me. On Halloween when I learned that you guys were hanging out and then walking to Clara's house, I can't say that didn't make me feel excluded. When you guys wouldn't answer the phone, and yes I know you guys were fixing her computer, but I called like five times, and I didn't get anybody after I got hung up on, I was feeling pretty shitty at this point.

And Nat, since you told me Becca c/p'ed the below post and didn't comment on it, I assume that you guys read what I write, but you don't comment on it, even when I want an answer. This time, I want an answer to all of this chaos. I want to know what you think, and I want to know if there is a compromise. What I do not want however, is a long post explaining how it is entirely my fault.

I want to be friends with you guys, but I'm not willing to be treated like this in order to be called "Best Friends".

hmm

posted here cause i didn't wanna stir up anything on facebook

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=763278&id=1062164898#/photo.php?pid=763278&id=1062164898&fbid=1244497986876

you guys met today? :/

-lc

FALALALALA

i have nothing really to say except that there's no school wednesdayy wohooo :DDDDD

yeah umm SHORTEST POST??

i really don't want to say anything because i wanna go to sleep :P and i have a global editorial to write :DDDDDD k night

-clara

i'll aloe your drink

That's just a nonsensical dirty joke.

TO REBECCA : Soooooooooooooo, my dad's pretty much a jackass and still won't tell me when he's getting my fucking camera. SO EFF HIM. I'm still getting my tripod, probably the coming week. You're not off the hook yet. And where the fuck are youu. I have the laptop right now and you're not online. I'm angry.

TO CLARA : What? Buttery? I love that. I didn't even know that you could have that feeling.

TO LINDA : Did you miss the quiz on the Old Testament? I got a 40 on that. I think the ones who got a 100 are the ones who've studied the Bible in church.

I went to the dentist today in the morning. Really, I just wanted to sleep after a week of total crap. But nooo I have rotting teeth so I dragged my ass to Flushing. And fuck the dentist I saw when I had my cleaning. She freaking said I was going to need a shot for my fillings but when I went today, they didn't give me one. I have to go back next week for the other side. I don't know why they just can't do all of them at once. I hate the dentist.

I had to take David home because my mom needed to go to Chinatown. And we went to the park and played soccer for two hours. It felt good to get air I guess. But my legs still hurt from gym yesterday. I don't like circuit training. I can do a good number of situps but the machine they have requires you to lay on your back with your waist down pretty much higher than your waist up. I was only supposed to do it in front of Rachel but then by my third one, freaking Sam, Eli, Daniel, and some other people started watching me. And really that angle on my chin, and double chin, is not the best. And I could barely do eight. My legs were freaking aching from the two different cushions. Ahhh, fail at life.

So I'm pretty much failing school for the first time in my life. Good timing right? I'm probably gonna sound like an ass in the next few sentences. But in middle school I had higher averages than you guys and now, I probably have the lowest. And it makes me feel like crap. Not that I think you guys are stupid, but because of the fact that I was up high there and now I'm below rock bottom. It's just saddening to myself. I haven't told my dad yet.

I'm scared.

I've always my family to be like theirs.


nat
(saturday)

unfortunately, because it was late you cannot make it up

screw you manning srsly.

AGHH.

ONTO MORE EMOTIONAL NEWS.

Noah Biorkman is a 5 y.o. boy who is dying of cancer. His family is celebrating Christmas next week as he may not live to see it this year. All he wants is Christmas cards. Lets try and see how many we can get to him. His address is: 1141 Fountain View Circle South Lyon, Mi 48178

I'm going to send him a card, and also my font got messy.

Maybe we can collaborate a group card for this kid? :O it's real btw, snopes verified it

I have a debate tomorrow, and a shitload of hw to do today. I also went to bio olympiad, they blow my mind, I'm not sure if I want to stay in it. It's.. scary what they're learning. It's beyond AP bio. BEYOND. AP. BIO.

WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?

Luckily I didn't go to the overnight debate, cause I didn't.. know it was overnight. :D

Although would've been cool ._.

I passed my math test.

With a 70.

Celebrate.

Anyways, my birthday's in a week and then some. I don't know what I'm doing, but I need to know if you guys are a gogo on a sleepover or not, cause I need.. to know what I CAN do.

-dadadacaicaicai

Blublublublublublublub.

I feel like butter. I've been feeling like butter almost for two days. Ewwwwwwwwww

Today was slightly better. I put my hair down today and people said I looked nice :D I even wore a pair of earrings my friend, Box, made for me.

Not much to say.. I only had two homeworks today.. and I'm pushing the last one as late as possible because I hate english .___. I HATE ENGLISH CLASS ugh. butter. I got my second annotated bib. back today.. and I got an 18/25 .__. I thought I did better on this one than the last one.. which I got a 20/25. Weird D: I don't know what she wants from me!!! AGH I don't get annotated bibliographies.. they suck bawls I also got a pop quiz back.. 4/10 eeekkk I hate trying to keep up with the reading .-. so many chapters of reading.. I HAVE A LIFE TOO TT^TT

I don't really know what to write about.. My global teacher, mr dorogusker got a haircut o__o he looks really weird.. He has really curly hair that kind of grows like an afro.. so when he cut it, even though there was like an inch and a half of hair left, it looked like he was bald.. weirddd e__e

This week feels like it's going by so SLOWWWLYYYY it's like I'm moving through butter. eww .__. I realy want to go to sleep but I should do this annotated bib. or then I'll pretty much fail her class.. I HATE ENLGISH :[ Why is it that even though english is like our first language (tho not really 'cause i started speaking chinese first) we fail miserably at it? ughhh

I think this'll be my shortest post EVAR

:[ buttery feeling

-clara

This is...

THIS IS REBECCA REPORTING TO YOU.

A typical day. I had lab and omg my take home lab is killer. You need a frying pan household liquids, a plastic baking pan (wtf. ) and then are a whole bunch of stuff that is needed to do.

Today i saw my chem teacher dance. It was pretty weird. i guess have music instead bells is pretty funny. People sing and dance in the halls if they know the songs. Having music is a plus. The bad part about it is that the song sometime gets stuck in your head.

Oh and my internet's fixed as you can seeee =]. i fixed it on halloween with natalie watching. WASN'T THAT FUN? ^___________^.

Hm.. what to say nothing really nothing at all. well nothing that is need to be said on here. let's seee.....

OH SPANISH TEST I GOT A 81 I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELFF.

HEHEHEHE and clara i still have to give you the foot.

i will assure you this one will work. =D

unless your computer's too old

anyways how was your days.

i bet your piled uunder the amount of homework you have while i have barely ish homework.

THAT'S NOT A WORD but okay .

i'm suppose to be reading catch in the rye .

Research project is so total bomb. might as well do it on the composition of allie's mitt

but i can't write poetry so _ _ _ _.

i say longest post in forever.

good bye

good night

hello tomorrow

this is really sad

I've been home all day and I haven't started my fucking essay yet. Good thing is that it's not due tomorrow. But stil, I should take today as an advantage. Instead I read Genesis 4 6 7 8 and 9. And then I just sat here for three hours. Took a walk to return stuff to Rebecca. Ate lunch. And here I am, still sitting here. I'm so fucking bored.

I guess life's going well. I finally started writing and it's not much right now, maybe two pages, but I'm proud of it. I like where it's heading. That's good right?


So that's what I'm getting. I hate it. I don't even know how it focuses. My dad said he'll get it this week or the next. He's a busy man so whatever. In the mean while, I need to get this.

I'm scared of holding a camera without that. It's not that much so I'll probably get it next week when I get my allowance. AND BECCA. You ruined my idea because of your fear of going into woods. Now I gotta rethink this shit. THANKS A LOT. You bum. <3

I'm failing computer science, badly. I'm having my second test this week and we can't use the computer so how am I going to check if my procedure works or not? I can't do everything in my head. My gosh. I failed my Chemistry test yesterday. I thought we had a free before the test but noppeee. OH and my global test raped me. So damn anal. I'm failing school.

I've never felt so stupid.

I hate elections.

I want to sleep.

But I have to write this essay.

It has to be awesome.

-Nat
(Tuesday)

i got a pocket got a pocket full of moonshine

Zzzz.. this post is probably gonna be short cause i haven't slept since yesterday because i'm the most awesome person ever with my sleeping schedules. awesome.

i heard about the mime thing on wednesday, and i was like "oshapple" and then i saw the resident evil marathon. /drool

i watched that for about 50% of my halloween. next year i want to be final fantasy characters though, because i want to have a part of final fantasy characters, and then we can rawk and stuff.

meh.

i'm thinking of restarting my games all over again, i.e. go back to playing those games that suck up my time because i have an urge to grind. grind as in awesomely level up, and only cause without gaming, i feel kinda empty. like i've been subduing it with basic games, but meh, i grew up gaming, and i'll be damned if i don't continue.

i walked around stuys blocks w/ tong today. there's two subways, the sandwich shops, two blocks away from each other, mcdonalds three blocks away, both of which are large stores [large than the springfield mcdonalds] and starbucks within one block of each other. not to mention the countless deli's and shiats.

wtf is up w/ manhattan.

also i learned that most people voted for bloomberg. i don't even know why, he doesn't have much experience, all he has is money, that doesn't guarantee a good political campaign, and he's republican, whereas the democratic option had a lot of good rep, like organizations affliated was filled to the max, and bloomberg's organizations was "N/A" and he still won wtf.

maybe it's cause i want to be involved in politics when i grow up, but i kinda hate how people are too passive, choosing the name that they hear the most. it's like, hey, i hear the world fidel castro a lot, but i don't think he should be our president.

/rant

/endrant

/stuffs face

-lnadi ica

Red Meat

We're all made of red meat :D I remember a few years ago.. when I was eating chicken, I had this epiphany <- trying to use my vocab words that the meat we eat/cook is muscle :DDD and I just kind of wanted to write that .. I think about a lot of things Nat :P

Sorry about last time.. I completely died the next day and the day after that .. I died and i slept for two days with school to interrupt. Heck I was so dead I was practically late for school that started at 8:45 the next day. Friday was pretty cool, I was little red. I guess since becca couldn't blog/ can't blog because of her internet, I'll just brief you readers on yesterday and and the week?but I can't put it in becca's point of view 'cause I don't go to dozo :P

Uhhh.. On Thursday I wore these monkey earrings Allie gave me a really really really long time ago as my birthday present.. I don't really get why she gave them to me because she loves monkeys more than I do.. But anyway, a lot of people noticed :D which is cool cause they really are cute and funky looking.. but now that I remember they were on my desk.. Ican't seem to find them :/

Friday was cool because some people were giving out candy in school and almost everyone was dressed up :D I missed first period tho.. because I took the late train :/That was a bummer because first period is full of mah buddies :DD I don't really like second period because it.. SUCKS BALLS. Not that I hate chemistry, I don't like the freshman in that class.. no offense to the freshman.. but the dudes in my class are so fricken stupid and annoying .-. I hope they get kicked out of that class..I do have one closeish friend in that class... but she sits on the other side of the room :[

Yesterday was the BOMBBBB wish you came linda :[ I'm pretty sure we told you that we were going trick or treating together before wednesday o___o but i guess maybe I was wrong.. I actually had art class and PSAT class on Halloween :[ I even had a midterm then too!! that sucks triple balls.. Art class was weird.. It was weird because the place was just two blocks behind my school and yet I was like .. WHERE IS ITTT @___@ I kind of ran in circles for half an hour.. until I finally noticed a sign pointing me in the right direction. I got a free sketchbook :D

We trick or treated with quite some people! IT was really fun :D but the whole mime thing was messed up because I came home late :[ I'm sorry guys!!! I really wasn't expecting that midterm.. or going to PSAT.. :/ I hope it doesn't get so messed up next year. We got a shitload of candy tho!! holy moly.. I'm pretty sure this bounty of candy is going to last me a whole year :D I'm so surprised tho.. even though we're still kind of in the recession, the candy has gotten so much better 8DD Hope it keeps up.

Oh oh! and Friday was cool too :DD Going to Columbus Circle and all.. and that pedestrian laughing at the leaf hitting you nat :P ohohohoh pricelessssss.

Yeah.. a brief look at what happened these couple of days.. hope it wasn't too brief

cya guys :D

-clulu