this is really sad

I've been home all day and I haven't started my fucking essay yet. Good thing is that it's not due tomorrow. But stil, I should take today as an advantage. Instead I read Genesis 4 6 7 8 and 9. And then I just sat here for three hours. Took a walk to return stuff to Rebecca. Ate lunch. And here I am, still sitting here. I'm so fucking bored.

I guess life's going well. I finally started writing and it's not much right now, maybe two pages, but I'm proud of it. I like where it's heading. That's good right?


So that's what I'm getting. I hate it. I don't even know how it focuses. My dad said he'll get it this week or the next. He's a busy man so whatever. In the mean while, I need to get this.

I'm scared of holding a camera without that. It's not that much so I'll probably get it next week when I get my allowance. AND BECCA. You ruined my idea because of your fear of going into woods. Now I gotta rethink this shit. THANKS A LOT. You bum. <3

I'm failing computer science, badly. I'm having my second test this week and we can't use the computer so how am I going to check if my procedure works or not? I can't do everything in my head. My gosh. I failed my Chemistry test yesterday. I thought we had a free before the test but noppeee. OH and my global test raped me. So damn anal. I'm failing school.

I've never felt so stupid.

I hate elections.

I want to sleep.

But I have to write this essay.

It has to be awesome.

-Nat
(Tuesday)