Accolade

n. award of merit.

My English teacher can suck it. When did all the English teachers turned male? I've had all female teacher till ninth and now everyone's just guys. I DON'T LIKE THE MEN. I wish they'd turned into females. . . not like they aren't already. Men are pussies. MEOW.

Anyways, I went to volunteer today. Not much happened. Except I was wearing long shorts and flip-flops and Tong was wearing short shorts and flip-flops. WE ARE AWESOME. We almost died in Flushing and almost fell about ten thousand times. Then we were walking to the bus, and some dude meowed at her. Like, actually meowed. So weird. Then we got on the bus and the AC was on and the chair was cold for Tong so she shrieked. It was funny.

I saw this photo from one of the most inspiring photographers I have come across on Flickr. She is truly amazing and I'm jealous of the amount of siblings she has. From what I've observed, she has three sisters, and some number of brothers.

I've always felt that the age differences of my siblings and myself is too vast. Imagine, when David's ten, Lucy's twenty-five. It seems wrong to me. I always wanted an older brother. Just for the hell of it and so Lucy didn't need to feel so responsible all the time. I think she needs a break sometimes. And my laziness does not allow her to have one. I also wanted another little sister which I could have had, if not for my parents and their choice. But hey, pro-choice, and all that mumbo-jumbo. It makes me sad to think of her. I think that David should also have a younger brother. Just something that makes him feel not so left out in the family, and kick some responsibility in his face. So that would make my family a total of 9 members. I think that'd be awesome.

Gloomy days like this make me think about her. I would've liked to have named her Rose, but for some reason that sounds strange with Fang. Maybe because she was not meant to be part of us. I hope her soul is with a good family.

-Natalie