:/

what's going onnnn anymore

i can barely concentrate on school and homework and now i'm failing at creating ideas in art too. iwishthisshietdidn'thappen .__. whenwefixthis,ifwedo..ihopewelaughatthisstupidcrapwe'regettingmadoverandmoveon

WE PLANNED TO GROW OLD TOGETHER :[ i wanna have children that know you're children

or at least know you when i'm bald and have no teeth

well whatever.. at least im having happy moments of laughter with my mom

sort of.. im running out of ideas in art class both public and private which is a bad sign and leads to failure. my art teacher's also avoiding me because i'm being a weird person and not giving feedback or the ideas that are kind of running through my head. even my friends were a little weary about me when i started getting annoyed with them and spouting bad stuff.. i had to apologize to them sometime after that because of my badd attitude.

ughh .-. i had psat class today and it was rainy outside.. my shoes are falling apart so i have to get new ones, but they soak really easily so they got soaked.. and so did my shoes and toes. i also bought something to eat before i went home, but when i ran to the train station to catch the LIRR, i missed the train and my food spilled ;__; not a good day

i think the only thing that was funny this week that made me happy was nine and tenth period with my buddies and my mom

my mom's always my savior and sinker

sometimes she makes me want to cry my throat out, but other's she makes me laugh until my stomach hurts.

she was joking with me about shanghainese "jokes" and phrases which were cool until i started thinking about "that" again :[

i wanna stop this crud that's making all of us so depressed and wtf

hope we go trick-or-treating together..

i'll stop bothering you readers with this depressing mood

-c